In addition to being insecure here, I'm also insecure over at L.G. Smith's blog where I talk about strong, female characters in a completely insecure way. That's right...it's Double Insecurity Day! Not quite as much fun as Double Coupon Day, but still maybe a little entertaining?
So, I know I haven't mentioned this at all, but my debut novel, Effigy, has been out for a couple of weeks now. I think things have been going well, but I'm not sure. I mean, it's not like I have anything to compare it to. All I have is this pit of constant worry where my stomach used to be. Sure, I worried before publication, but now it's reached this whole new level, and I find it terrifying to think that there's another level of worry. And probably one past that, too.
But still, I'm not very sure I'm very good at being a published author. If people ask about the book, I immediately become so tongue-tied that complete sentences are beyond me. That is, if I haven't already melted under a table or a rock or whatever's handy. Someone asked me to sign a copy of the book, and I spelled my name wrong. I was flustered, embarrassed, my hands were shaking, and the next thing I knew...wrong. Wrong, wrong, wrong.
Such a proud, proud moment.
Which is why I chose to immortalize it in this blog. And Twitter. And Facebook.
I like to think that things will get better, easier, with time, but the fact remains that I'm still me, and awkward is (apparently) in my DNA.
But at least I'll have plenty of fodder for plenty more IWSG posts.
That's going to do it for me today...I'm off to practice writing my name. Just kidding—I'm off to my uber-exciting day job.
But maybe I'll practice on my lunch break.
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